A Dedication

Hurt me, cut me...its the hours' need,
to realise I am alive...I need to bleed...

Strike a shovel into my heart.....
Which I think will now send back a sound...
Its metal and all hollow......
Echo!!!!No living matter around.....

My nerves need to be cut... cmon get all u got..
Wat did ya say.. its all frozen?? theres nothing left to rot???

Ok I say, try cutting through my brain,
something somewhere must be left out...
Nah nothing here too is left,Apart from some hazy smoky clouds...

My legs?? I used to walk one day....
One day they used to take me around!
No man,the joints r now Lifeless like steel....They too now send back a sound!!!

My hands, they were my power,my imagination, my pride, my love, my hatred...
They too my friend are no more real...finished off the day your work got influenced.....

Nothing! Nothing could make me feel alive...
My remorse is killing me,
I had bent, I had given up my fight...
I had made myself believe that "they" were indeed right...

Why then this remorse,
Where is my belief in myself,
Why this guilt is drowning me in,
What makes me proud today is nothing but my recent Sin???!!!

What they call an inspiration for others...
Has actually blackened my white feathers.....
What a cruel joke!!!

They said black is yet another colour like white....
What you did will surely spread light...
But has light ever been dark...as dark as black??
Why with my eyes closed I see those bodies on the tracks???

The dark smoke you see in my brain...
I dont even feel the pain......
Its all rotten, I think I know why,
Its the moisture from those eyes , they lost their love in those trains......

The metal you see in my heart, was all that was left infact,
Just like my heart it was strong enough, to enjoy the impact...
Not like the fragile innocence, which got blasted away...
What is it if not a joke when I still kneel down to pray......

In your name Oh God!! I quenched my thirst,
I pity you too, for on "The Day", I did see the clouds burst.......